Monday, July 5, 2010


It is so disappointing to have gone through double mastectomy, chemotherapy, and reconstruction only to have the tumor reappear in my non-existent left breast almost exactly three years later.  Two years of treatment and pain for one year of recovery along with almost financial ruin, and then cancer again.  Yet health care, or the lack of it, is a crisis for millions of people--no health care, no health insurance and no anything else for so many.  So now having had the new tumor "excised" and with an oncology appointment next week to figure out where we go from here, I am thinking of recurrence, what it means, what is is, and that I hope health and happiness recur and that I will be cancer free again.

Monday, April 12, 2010

Driving Lucille Clifton

2000 Dodge Poetry Festival (Carter Douglass, Ernie Wormwood, Kathy Glaser, Lucille Clifton, Lara Payne, Jeanne Vote)

Lucille receiving the National Book Award 2000

My friend Lucille Clifton died on February 13, 2010. I met her at a Literary Festival at St. Mary's College fifteen years ago. Lucille did not drive. I asked her about it once and she just said she couldn't drive.

In 1999 I started driving her here and there, often to Columbia from St. Mary's, or to the airport, or picking her up from the airport. I also drove to and from Squaw Valley, California with her several times, as she was a mainstay of the poetry conference there and I went as a a participant three times. We also took the train to New York and flew to gigs she had. Whether in the car, on the train, or plane, or sipping coffee in the morning after something, we were easy friends who laughed much. We talked like girls about all the stuff girls talk about. Lucille was a child in her sense of wonder and awe, but she was a giant on stage. Often at the Dodge Poetry Festival in Waterloo (she was there for all but one--I started going in 1998), I would stand outside the big tent and listen to her voice being broadcast outdoors and say to passersby, "Isn't this like hearing the voice of God?."

She had about everything you could have happen to you happen in her life. She endured and went on until February 13, 2010. When I learned she had died, I took out all her books, all the mementos, all the journals I had written in about our adventures and the poem below came to help me endure.

I read this poem and said some of these things at the Memorial for her on April 10, 2010 at St. Mary's College.


How you held me up like a bridge
through the deaths of father and brother
How we talked of thinking
about sex all the time, no hips, no lips
ever said more
How we mourned Roland, Stanley, Sekou
and wondered at missing someone differently
when he goes somewhere else

Sex, death, poetry.

You said your mother kept death away.
Light, how will you fill the canyon you
have darkened?

To bring you, I read the inscriptions in
your books, Dear Ernie, Dear Ernie,
Dear Ernie, the handwritten Lucilles
and then the clippings, notes, photos
and the date your mother left the hole in you,
February 13, 1959 and then

comes the light of Lucille Clifton
called by her mother February 13, 2010
at the right time
at the good time.

© 2010 Ernie Wormwood

Monday, April 5, 2010

It's Poetry Month

I thought I'd write a little poem about Nigel, my new friend and English Bull Dog.


I love snoring now
that you have
come into my life,
underbite and all.